There comes a moment when pushing harder is no longer the answer.

When your soul begins whispering that something has to change. That the way you have been giving — and holding it all together — is no longer sustainable. And that the woman you were before all of this deserves to be found again.

I know that moment. I lived inside it for years.

I was the woman everyone leaned on: the executive, the mother, the founder, the one who always had an answer. And I was drowning. Not loudly. The quiet kind of drowning that nobody notices because you are too good at performing strength.

What saved me wasn't a strategy or a program. It was a one-way ticket and the courage to stop. To go somewhere the ocean was warm, the air smelled like something true, and nobody needed anything from me. I went looking for healing and found something I didn't expect — myself. The original version. The one who existed before every title, every obligation, every year of giving everything away.

I came home changed. And I have spent every year since creating that room for other women.

Roatán is that room.

Five days on a Caribbean island most people have never heard of. Ten women who already understand your journey before you say a word. A private luxury mansion where you will not cook, not clean, not manage anyone else's emotions or schedules or expectations. Just warm water, still mornings, and finally, finally, the quiet to hear yourself again.

This is not a vacation. It is a return.

Through evidence based guided exercises, you will reflect on what you are ready to lay down, what you are ready to reclaim, and what your next chapter is asking of you. You will untangle the burnout, the over-responsibility, the pressure to hold it all together. You will leave with more clarity, more peace, and a truer sense of the woman you have always been becoming.

I did not create the Queendom Retreat because it sounded beautiful.

I created it because I needed it — and I could not find it anywhere.

I built the room. The door is open. And I saved a seat for you.

With love and purpose,

— Toni X

Poet. Author. Experience Curator.

The woman who went to find herself and never stopped becoming.

Roatán is a small Caribbean island most people have never heard of. The water is the kind of clear that makes you question everything you thought you knew about stillness. The air carries salt and green and something older than tourism — something the Garifuna people have been living inside for centuries. A people who survived the Middle Passage, survived exile, survived every attempt to erase them — and chose, generation after generation, to preserve joy anyway. Rhythm anyway. Ease anyway. Not as a luxury. As an act of defiance.

This island does something to you. It always has.

Dr Sebi, was born Alfredo Bowman from this soil. He grew up barefoot and dismissed, largely uneducated, told by a world that had already decided he had nothing to offer. He could have believed it. Instead he listened to something older — the land, the plants, the ancient intelligence of a place that had been healing people long before it had a clinic, a hospital, or a name anyone outside recognized.

The world knows him now as Dr. Sebi, the healer who walked into a New York courtroom, stood before a judge, and proved, with 70 patients the medical establishment said could not be healed — that the body knows how to return to itself when you stop poisoning it and start feeding it what it was made for. They called him a fraud. He won. They kept coming for him anyway. He kept healing people anyway.

What he understood — what this island taught him before he had the language for it — is that disease is not the problem. Depletion is. Disconnection is. The slow stripping away of everything that was supposed to sustain you until one day you look up and realize you have been running on obligation and adrenaline for so long you cannot remember what it felt like to simply be well.

He was not talking only about the body.

You already know he wasn't.

Roatán is not a backdrop. It is not a pretty place to take pictures and come home unchanged. It is the origin of a man who spent his entire life insisting that return is possible — that no matter how far you have drifted from yourself, the conditions for healing still exist. That the earth still holds what you need. That your body still remembers.

You do not come here to be fixed. You come because something in the water, the air, the unhurried rhythm of a people who never forgot how to rest — something here creates the conditions your body and your spirit have been quietly starving for.

Dr. Sebi was born on this island and it made him a believer.

Five days here and you will understand why.

🏝️Picture this:

You step off the plane in Roatán, Honduras — a Caribbean island most people have never heard of. A warm breeze meets you at the airport. You're picked up and driven to Casa Bella Mansion, a private luxury estate where only nine other women will share this experience with you.

For the next five days, you will not cook. You will not clean. You will not manage anyone else's emotions, schedules, or expectations. A private culinary hostess prepares your meals. The ocean is steps away. And every moment of this experience has been designed with one purpose — giving you back to yourself.

You arrive carrying everything. You leave carrying only your crown.

Check the daily itinerary for the details of each day and outcomes.

This retreat was made for you if:

You are an Black woman who has spent years — maybe decades — holding everyone else up while quietly wondering who is going to hold you.

You are accomplished. Faith-rooted. Culturally engaged. And somewhere between all of your titles and responsibilities, you lost the thread back to yourself.

You are ready for your next chapter — and you just need permission to begin.

✅ You are tired of performing strength you don't always feel

✅ You know rest is not a reward — it is survival — but you haven't lived that yet

✅ Travel calls to you but you always find a reason to wait

✅ You want a room full of sisters who already know your struggle before you say it

✅ You are done living by default and ready to live by design

✅ You believe God has more for you — and you are finally ready to receive it

This retreat may not be for you if:

❌ You are not ready to put yourself first — even for five days

❌ You are unwilling to be vulnerable in a safe space with a group of sisters

❌ You expect a vacation with no depth or intention

❌ You are not open to being coached, challenged, or changed

Only 10 women. This room is curated — not open to everyone. If you felt something reading this, that feeling is your answer.

... ABOUT THE BOOK THAT ANCHORS THIS RETREAT

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "I absolutely could not put it down. This memoir bravely, honestly chronicles the mundane, imperfect and divine realities of womanhood that we all ultimately share. It's empowering to be reminded that we are not alone." — Carla, Verified Reader

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "Just read this book… Wow!!! I believe it mirrors the heart and emotions of many women, single or married. The author's vulnerability and transparency in so few pages was so very powerful. Some sections made me teary-eyed." — Jorriel, Verified Reader

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "A POWERFUL AND ENLIGHTENING READ! These poems are raw, real, and well worth the read. A testimony and reconciliation of a journey experienced by thousands!" — D. Reuben, Verified Reader

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "I believe that her honesty will help many women through their life journey of marriage, raising children, working, all while being true to themselves." — Verified Reader

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "The poetry spoke from the soul of the writer into the reader's thoughts. Definitely a must read for women or men who feel they need a recharge in their relationships and life in general." — Verified Reader

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ "Toni X digs deep and personal in her poetic memoir. It's a great read!" — Acquanette, Verified Reader

Toni X is the author of the Amazon bestselling poetic memoir Let It Go: Queens Gotta $#!+, Too! — a raw, honest book born from 30 years of marriage, motherhood, and the silent weight that nearly broke her.

After decades of pouring into everyone else — her husband, her four children, her career, her community — Toni found herself empty. Empty-nested and emptied out. So she did the only thing she knew how to do: she bled onto the page. What came out was a book that women across the country called "powerful," "enlightening," and "a mirror for every woman, single or married."

Readers didn't just read the book — they felt it. They cried. They said "I am not alone." They said "every woman needs to read this." The book earned a 4.8-star rating on Amazon and sparked a movement among women who were tired of being strong instead of supported.

The Queendom Building Retreat is the live, immersive experience that brings the healing of that book off the page and into real life — in a luxury mansion in Roatan, Honduras, surrounded by only 10 women who understand your journey without explanation.

Toni is also the founder of Micah 6-8 Media, LLC, producer of the Atlanta Black Theatre Festival, and the curator behind ABTF Travels — a travel experience company with 8 five-star reviews and trips spanning Ghana, East Africa, and beyond. She brings a proven track record of creating world-class, culturally rich, transformative experiences.

This isn't her first time creating something extraordinary. But this retreat is her most personal.

Learn more and join our live information webinars @ solo.to/ABTFtravels

Secure your seat today with a deposit of just $500. Payment plans available. No hidden costs. Gratuities included.

Only 10 women total. Select packages have 2 spots remaining.

Your Questions Answered

How do I secure my spot? A $500 deposit holds your seat today. Payment plans are available for the remaining balance. Reach out directly and we will find a plan that works for you. Your healing should not have a financial barrier.

Can I really leave for five days? You have shown up for everyone else without question. Five days in Roatan, a tropical island, is not abandonment — it is maintenance. The women who love you need you restored, not running on fumes. You cannot pour from an empty vessel. You know this. Now live it.

Is the investment worth it? Everything included — luxury accommodations, breakfast and dinner daily, airport transfers, guided sessions, spa day, cultural excursion, a signed copy of Let It Go, and 90 days of accountability after you return home — is covered. At $500 to hold your seat, the question is not whether you can afford this. The question is whether you can afford another year without it.

What if I have never traveled internationally? You are in the right hands. Toni has led 100+ to the continent and back — safely, joyfully, and with full support. You will receive everything you need to prepare, including travel guidance and a pre-trip orientation. All you have to do is show up.

Do I need to know anyone going in? No. By Day 2 you will feel like you are among sisters. The retreat is intentionally intimate — only 10 women — which means deep connection happens fast. Many women leave with friendships that last long after the trip ends.

Is this a religious retreat? Faith is woven into the Queendom — because it is woven into Toni. If you are faith-rooted, you will feel right at home. If you are spiritual but not religious, you are equally welcome. This retreat is grounded in healing, identity, and sisterhood — and God gets the credit.

What is the cancellation policy? Your $500 deposit is non-refundable. If you need to cancel, please contact us as early as possible. We recommend purchasing travel insurance with a medical evacuation rider — it is listed as a requirement for all attendees.

I am interested but not ready to book. What should I do? Download the brochure and join our email list for the next live information session. Toni X hosts a Queends' Circle — a montly📝🗒️ 60-minute experience that will show you exactly what this room feels like before you commit. The door is always open.

Day 1 — Radical Release Arrival · Grounding · Intention

You step off the plane and feel it immediately—the air is softer, the pace is slower, and for the first time in a long time, no one needs anything from you.

After settling in, meet your hostess, Toni, by the pool for a Queen’s Welcome Cocktail Soirée with sparkling wine, rosé, and elegant seasonal bites.

Then enjoy our signature Flower Bar experience, where each Queen creates a custom bouquet of locally grown blooms to enjoy throughout the week.

Ease into the evening with a refreshing dip in the pool, playful games, golden sunset laughter, and the joy of simply being present.

As night falls, gather for a beautifully styled Welcome Dinner prepared by our culinary hostess for connection, conversation, and delight.

After dinner, we create our Queen’s Circle—ten women, one room, no performance required. You’ll receive your signed copy of Let It Go: Queens Gotta $#!+, Too!: Mastering the Art of Reclaiming Your Queendom as Toni shares excerpts from the memoir that sparked this movement. Something inside you will whisper: she understands. 👑

What changes this day: Sisterhood begins, and so does your journey back to yourself.

Day 2 — Radical Rest Nervous System · Sleep · Touch

Wake to a beautiful island breakfast filled with rich local coffee, vibrant fresh fruits, warm breads, and hearty morning favorites prepared with love. Gather slowly, savor deeply, and begin your day nourished in body, spirit, and ease. 👑

Early risers can enjoy a leisurely and independent start to your morning routine with the option of: sunrise yoga, stretching, guided walking meditation, or journaling.

Mid morning we'll begin with a guided session on sleep and restoration — not just tips, but a real understanding of what happens inside your body when it is finally allowed to rest. How your nervous system heals. How your cells repair. How the version of you that has been running on fumes begins, slowly, to come back online. Then we go quiet.

Enjoy a leisurely afternoon entirely your own—rest by the pool, journal in a quiet corner, explore the island, nap guilt-free, or simply do nothing at all. This is your time to move at the pace your spirit has been craving.

Be ready at 5pm, as sunset approaches, dressed in white for an elegant beachside evening of fine dining with your sister circle, where the sea breeze, candlelight, and beautiful conversation set the tone. We'll capture the moment with a stunning all-white photo shoot for timeless images of the woman you are becoming. 👑

What shifts this day👑 Most women arrive not knowing how depleted they actually are. Today is when the body tells the truth — and finally gets what it has been asking for. You stop mistaking exhaustion for strength, and you finally know how to sleep like you mean it.

Day 3 — Radical Self-Care Agency · Boundaries · Self-Trust

Wake to a beautiful island breakfast filled with rich local coffee, vibrant fresh fruits, warm breads, and hearty morning favorites prepared with love. Gather slowly, savor deeply, and begin your day nourished in body, spirit, and ease. 👑

Early risers may enjoy a gentle start with sunrise stretching, guided meditation, journaling, or a peaceful walk as the island wakes around you.

Rested for the first time in years, something becomes possible that wasn’t before—clarity.

Today’s guided sessions use evidence-based practices and reflective writing to help you name the thought patterns, family scripts, and silent agreements that have kept you performing instead of living. What you write today becomes the foundation for your Queendom Declaration on Day 5. No fixing. No overwhelm. Just the quiet, compassionate work of finally telling yourself the truth.

The afternoon is yours. Rest by the pool, journal in a quiet corner, receive a spa treatment*, nap guilt-free, jewelry making (supplies provided), explore the island on your own, water sports, or simply enjoy the freedom of having nowhere to rush. Move only at the pace your spirit desires.

*On-site massages and facials available today — because theraputic massages are their own form of medicine. (Optional add-on.)

As evening arrives, gather for a joyful Grill Night under the open sky. Enjoy fresh island flavors, beautiful music, warm breezes, and the kind of laughter that reminds you life can feel light again.

What Shifts This Day 👑 You uncover hidden patterns, gain language for what has been weighing on you, and begin writing a personal truth that can guide your next chapter. You stop living on autopilot. Clarity replaces confusion, honesty replaces performance, and the woman beneath the roles begins to rise.

Day 4 — Radical Restoration Culture · Healing · Remembering

Wake to a nourishing island breakfast of rich local coffee, tropical fruits, warm breads, and hearty morning favorites prepared with love. Gather slowly and prepare for a day of culture, wisdom, and remembrance. 👑

Today we follow the coastline to Punta Gorda — home to one of the oldest Garifuna settlements in Central America. Here lives a people who never separated food from medicine, music from healing, or joy from survival.

You’ll spend time with local knowledge keepers and healers. Learn the plants. Hear the stories. Taste meals grown from soil never asked to be anything other than what it is. Experience traditions rooted in harmony with the body, the land, and the spirit.

Move to drumbeats that soothed and regulated nervous systems long before modern science had language for it. Feel rhythm as medicine, movement as memory, and joy as inheritance.

This is not a performance for tourists. It is a living culture, generously shared with women ready to receive something deeper than entertainment—perspective.

Return to the villa with the evening free to rest, reflect, journal, swim, or sit quietly with all that has stirred inside you.

What Shifts This Day 👑 You gain practical insight into plant wisdom, nourishment, stress relief through rhythm and movement, and cultural practices centered on wholeness. You experience a place and people whose traditions still live.

You remember that healing did not begin in modern wellness culture. It has always lived in ancestral knowledge, community, rhythm, and the earth. Something in you reconnects to wisdom older than fear—and you begin trusting your body again.

Day 5 — Radically Renewed Integration · Declaration · Return

Wake to your final island morning sunrise. Enjoy one last full breakfast of rich local coffee, fresh fruits, warm breads, and morning favorites as you take in the beauty of how much you've changed in just a few days. 👑

This morning, we gather one final time in sisterhood for the ceremony that completes your journey. Each woman reads her Queendom Declaration aloud—the personal manifesto she has been writing all week in the margins of her healing. Your sisters witness it, receive it, and reflect your truth back to you.

Then comes the crowning ceremony. Your crown is placed on your head not as a symbol, but as a remembering of who you have always been.

You'll have the opportunity to continue via the Queens' Circle and Queens' Journal Experience (add-on*) because what happens here does not stay here. It goes home with you, into your relationships, routines, boundaries, dreams, and daily life where it matters most.

You arrived carrying everything. You leave carrying only your crown.

10:00 AM load and departure to the airport.

What Shifts This Day 👑You leave with your written Queendom Declaration, a clear next-step vision, accountability support for the next 90 days, and practical momentum to continue what began here.

You stop returning home as the same woman who left. You carry new standards, deeper self-respect, clearer boundaries, and a living belief that your life can be redesigned. What changes when you go home? Everything—and this time, it lasts.

Monthly Queens Circle The retreat ends. The becoming does not.

Every woman who attends the Queendom Retreat returns home with her crown on — and a community waiting to make sure it stays there. The Queens' Circle is Toni's free monthly gathering — a live 60-minute experience with a guest speaker, a reflection prompt, and a room full of women who understand your journey without explanation.

The Queendom Journal Experience Your 90-Day Private Return to Self

You did the work in Roatán. You read your Declaration aloud. You put your crown on. And then you flew home — back to the same kitchen, the same inbox, the same people who need things from you before you even set your bag down.

This is for that moment.

The Queendom Journal Experience is a private 90-day continuation exclusively for retreat alumni — combining a beautifully designed physical journal with three monthly private group sessions that keep the work alive long after the island fades from your skin.

📝The Journal Ninety days of prompts built directly on the intention you set on Day 1 and the truth you wrote on Day 3. Organized across three months — Release, Root, Rise — so the transformation you began in Roatán has somewhere to go when real life tries to pull you back. Closes with a letter you write to yourself, to be opened one year from today.

📌Three Private Monthly Sessions Once a month for three months, you return to a private group — retreat alumni only, no newcomers, no strangers — for a 60-minute integration call. Month one is led by Toni personally. Months two and three are led by a trained facilitator who knows your journey and picks up exactly where you left off. These are not motivational calls. They are working sessions — honest, intimate, and built around where you actually are, not where you think you should be.

This is not the Queens' Circle. That community is yours freely, every month, for as long as you want it. This is something smaller. Quieter. Just the women who were in that mansion with you, checking in, telling the truth, and making sure the crown stays on.

The journal closes with a letter you write to yourself — to be opened one year from today.

Included with VIP Suite. Available as an add-on for Crown Suite guests and Royal Gathering guests at $147, only $97 if purchased before the retreat here as an add-on.